Monday, November 24, 2008

Doing Better

I am doing better. In a nutshell, my daughter does not like us to come to her away swim meets. She qualified for sections and we wanted to go. So, against her wishes we went and cheered her on. She was very angry, but did get over it sooner than I did.

I would have done anything for my mom to plan ahead and make time for me - come to my music concerts, plays, etc. I never knew if she would show up and if she did it was after a stop at the bar. The whole think with Charity just put me in a slump that I had to sort through. I just couldn't put this on her, but needed to understand why I felt the way I did. Thank you so much for any amount of prayer. The Lord is faithful and slowly heals my broken childhood.

I want to enjoy this part of my daughters life - it will go by so quickly. I don't want to be over controlling, but involved. I think that it is important that I know who she is friends with and hangs out with.

That is all for now.


Friday, November 14, 2008

Bad day today

I don't really want to share too much here, but I am struggling with some emotional issues. My relationship with my daughter has triggered some long lost feeling that I thought I was over. If you think about it, say a quick prayer that I will know what is from God and what I need to get rid of. Thanks.


Tuesday, November 11, 2008


Here is a Meme that I just did via email. Thought it was fun.

Welcome to the new 2008 edition of getting to know your family and friends.

1. What is your occupation right now? Chemistry Teacher

2. What color are your socks right now? white

3. What are you listening to right now? quiet classroom with murmurs of students in other classes

4. What was the last thing that you ate? banana bread for breakfast

5. Can you drive a stick shift? yes

6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Roger

7. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes, Very Much

8. How old are you today? 39

9. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? NASCAR

10. What is your favorite drink? non-alcoholic, pepsi, with alcohol, Bailey's on ice

11. Have you ever dyed your hair? yes

12. Favorite food? Mexican - bean burritos smothered in green chili sauce

13. What is the last movie you watched? High School Musical 3 (yes, I have a teenage girl in the house)

14. Favorite day of the year? Today

15. How do you vent anger? blog or yell

16. What was your favorite toy as a child? playing with a tea set

17. What is your favorite season? Spring

18. Cherries or Blueberries? cherries

19. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? Absolutely!

20. Who is the most likely to respond? Don't know

21. Who is least likely to respond? most

22. Living arrangements? in a house

23. When was the last time you cried? a couple months ago

24. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes, dirty clothes basket, stool to reach shelf, gym bags

25. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending to? Monica and Tatiana

26. What did you do last night? Attended a swimming booster club meeting

27. What are you most afraid of?being abandoned

28. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers? cheese

29. Favorite dog breed? not really fond of dogs

30. Favorite day of the week? Sunday

31. How many states have you lived in? 2

32. Diamonds or pearls? diamonds

33. What is your favorite flower? lilacs


Wednesday, November 05, 2008

I t is official

Barack Obama will be our next President for 4 years, with a democrat congress to back him up.

What will happen? Some people are hoping for amazing change - peace, freedom, prosperity - and Obama will be able to do it all?

My heart was saddened by the results. What is God trying to teach us? Is God letting us choose our own way? Has our country so turned from the truths of God to let us be led by such a man? Only God knows Obama'a heart and I may be spending eternity in heaven with him, but his actions and philosophies truly scare me. What is going to happen to the millions of women allowed and encouraged to get abortions? What will happen to our military personal so dedicated to the freedoms of our country?

Yet, I must trust that God allowed this and is control. He has seen the result of this election and knows the end of the story. Will the churches (us) step up and fill in the gaps and offer true hope beyond today? Is this the beginning of a revival for our country? Ultimately God will use whatever means possible to bring us back to Him.

Lord, help me to respect the authority of the new leadership and ultimately to bow down only to you. Help me to see your purpose in all this and to teach my children appropriately.